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My Experience with Homeopathy


Before I officially came out of the atheist closet I did have an experience with homeopathy, it was also my last shred of hope that there might be a god.

I had a cat that I loved soo much.  She was the best cat in the world.  She was about 7 years old and I was expecting to get at least 6 more years with her.  Well she had been losing weight gradually when I had moved into my husbands house but nothing to be alarmed about. Months had passed and one day I noticed that she wasn’t eating as much and I thought ok well maybe her teeth hurt because I knew they were really bad.  So I took her in to get her teeth cleaned and when i got her back home she ate very little and then nothing the following few days.  I started freaking out and trying to figure out what I could do to help her without spending tons of money because we had no money.  My husband had a client that had done research on pet foods and was also a homeopath.  I contacted her and she advised me to start feeding her raw food.  With nothing working my husband and I decided to ask her about homeopathy.  I was so blinded in trying to get my cat healthy again that I told her we would try anything she suggested.

We tried about 5 different ‘remedies’ and each time I would ask this gal “Ok what can i expect to happen?” Her response was always the same: “It could either help her perk up, do nothing, or help her in the dying process.” Ok at this point after getting the same response after the 2nd time I asked this, I was thinking “well those are the same things that could happen everytime I go to bed.  3 things can happen: I could wake up feeling fantastic, wake up feeling just the same as when I went to bed, or I could not wake up” hmmm.  But I was so blinded that I still had hope homeopathy was going to work.

In the end it didn’t.  I made the decision to put her down because she wasn’t getting any better.  She was yellow and skinny.  It was so sad.  I put her down on July 1st this year.

I am still so mad that I didn’t get the other 6 years I should have had with her.  I’m so mad I bought into homeopathy.  I’m so mad that I bought into the idea that she would be waiting for me on the other side when really she wont be.  I am happy though that she wont miss me, even though I miss her so much.  I’m happy that she isn’t hurting.  I’m happy that my friends didn’t try to tell me that homeopathy was just a load of crap when I was going through this.  I probably wouldn’t have listened.  This experience was honestly the last shred of hope that I had in order to prove to myself that there might be a god.  I prayed so hard to have some kind of sign that if he was there that he would save my favorite cat.  There was no sign.  He didn’t save her.  He wasn’t there when I put her down and cried for her to wake up hoping that the medicine didn’t effect her.

It’s true that I have always been skeptical of there being a god, but this experience proved it to me.  I did cling onto the hope for years that there might be.  I called myself an Agnostic during that time.  I kept praying and searching, but it was all pointless during this.  I did hold onto that last hope, but in the end it made no difference to pray to the christian god or to zeus. Neither were there.  So to say I became an atheist over night is a lie.  I tried so hard to believe for years, but it never came to anything.


RIP Beezwax 7/1/11


There is no such thing as a religious child


The Mr and I are taking a vacation to visit my grandparents up in Hagermen, Idaho.  Its a small little town with less than 1,000 people.  I love this town, but with all small towns its very religious.  My grandparents are religious so we’ve been keeping quite with our own beliefs.  Its a lot better than what i expected.  I was honestly worried that they would pray at every meal and they would ask us to say a prayer and have to deal with that awkward situation.  But there hasnt been any of that.  Anyways this isnt the topic of this post…

On the 8 hour drive up to here we started listening to Richard Dawkins “The God Delusion”. I LOVE this book!  Every single point he brings up makes total sense!  The thing he says about kids is fantastic.  He says kids should not be refered to as ‘a christian/mormon/jew/etc child’ they should be reffered to as ‘a child of christian/jew/etc parents’. Kids are to young to know what religion they choose to be. They should be able to choose what they believe in when they are old enough to understand whats happening.  Religion uses the scare tactic with kids.  It also allows adults to push the “dont you dare question adults/higher being” so a adult tells a child “you are christian and thats what you will be forever”. The child doesnt question and thats it.  If they get older and no longer believe their religion its hard to accept breaking free from what they’ve been brought up in.  No one tells the child “its ok the explore your options.  Its ok the question your beliefs”.

To me this is sad.  When we have kids, we will tell them its ok to believe in something different than what we believe.  It allows the child to become who they want to be.  It gives them the choice.  By not forcing them into a religion allows them to actually be a child and to not grow up to fast.

If our child wants to go to church then we’ll take them.  If they later decide that they do believe in a god then we will support them.  Its just the same thing we would do if they come up and tell they are gay.  We’ll still love and support them.  There are much worse things they could tell us than their religious beliefs or their sexual preferance. 

I do encourage everyone to read The God Delusion wheither they are atheist or religious.  It will make you think about your beliefs.  I doubt anyone who is religious will read this book,but i would hope that they would.

My official Atheist coming out


Ok here we go.  I’m coming out the the facebook world.  I made it all ‘official’ by changing my religious status to Atheist.  So by the rules of internets if you say it on facebook it’s official right?  (lol) And today I really wanted to post something here and publicly announcing the new post on my regular newsfeed as apposed to just posting on the wall of the Reno Freethinkers group page.  (Man it’s really ridiculous how seriously we take facebook.  It’s embarrassing!)  Anyways after some wine here it is….

I’m an Atheist.

Don’t worry I wont bash your religious views just because my beliefs have changed.  And just because I believe something different than your theist views doesn’t mean that I will stop respecting you.  Which in turn I would hope you would still respect me just the same.  I support my friends beliefs even if I don’t believe them myself.

Everyday I keep it hidden the more I feel like it’s eating me away.  This wasn’t a light or fleeting decision.  I’ve thought about this for a while and I didn’t realize it until a few months ago.  So I would ask you to please don’t pray for me or try to convince me that I’m wrong.  I don’t do that to you so please respect that.  I don’t believe in a heaven or a hell so please don’t tell me that I’m doing to hell just because I don’t believe the same thing as you.

I’m no different, I don’t have a desease or koodies, so there is no need to keep away from me.  I wont raise my kids to be devil worshipers (because I don’t believe in the devil) but I will raise them to be intellegent and allow them to make their own decisions as  far as their beliefs.

I know I’ll be nervous as soon as I post this onto my facebook, but I’ll get over it and I’ll feel better.  If you can’t accept my decision and want to try to ‘condemn’ me to hell or tell me I’m wrong then you don’t have to read my blog or you can just ignore me or “defriend me” (oooohhhh nooooo!…please).

Just keep in mind that Atheists want respect just as much as Christians/Jews/spaghetti monster/etcs want respect.

So cheers to you all.  I’m celebrating my out-ness (I know it’s not a real word) by drinking some more wine (or beer) and watching tonights Nightline with James Randi showing that all psychics are fakes.

Here is my official scarlet letter!  I’m damn proud of it!

Is Abraham a Schizophrenic?


The True Story of Abraham and Isaac – Friendly Atheist



This is soooo fantastic!!  The story of Abraham and Isaac is crazy to me.  Why would someone kill their own son just because a voice told them to?  I wouldn’t!  To hear voices telling them to kill someone is called Schizophrenia.

Plus why would a ‘loving’ god make you kill your own flesh and blood just to prove your devotion to it?  That isn’t loving at all!!

In my opinion god is very much bipolar.  He should really get that checked out and get on some medications to mellow out a bit.

If god is a woman, maybe she’s just PMSing and Abraham did something to really piss her off and told him to kill his own son.

Or maybe it was one of those funny dares between good friends of “You wont kill your son right now…” and Abraham was like “haha you wanna bet?  watch this!” and then god yelled down “No I was just kidding!  i didn’t think you would actually do it!  wow dude…”

Again why would a god tell you to kill your own child?  Maybe god just needed a ego boost and needed to be reassured that people loved him so he went to the extreme.

Well whatever his reason was still wont make me believe in him again.

Happy Monday everyone!