Lots of things have been going on the past few days. Some I can talk about, some I can’t just yet(trust me they are really freaking cool!).
Of the things I can talk about, I am in the process of filling out an application to become a Secular Minister! The Reno Freethinkers leader has been performing weddings for a while and he’s getting overwhelmed with the demand for a secular minister. So I volunteered to help out. I have to fill out an application with Washoe County in order to be legal. I’m pretty excited about it! So if you want a Secular Minister to perform your wedding and you’re in the Reno/Tahoe area talk to me!
Reno Freethinkers is going to start doing 2 meetings a month! I’m so happy about this because I’ll be able to attend the meetings this semester! I was worried i was going to miss the regular last wednesday of the month meetings until school ended because I have a class that ends 45 minutes after the meeting started and by the time I would get there the meeting would be over. So yay more meetings! Nothing has been officially announced just yet but it will be soon.
UNR officially has a Secular Student Alliance! I was able to help out with the club fair booth this past friday and it was awesome to see so many students sign up! We had students who were real nervous to ask us questions and then we had students who were sooo excited to hear we are official! I was there to help out for a hour and a half and when I had left there were 25 students who had given us their email address. The event still had a few hours left so I’m sure we got several more emails. woot!
Those were the things I’m allowed to talk about. The things I’m not allowed to talk about are being kept a secret until we are given the ok to speak about them. But trust me it’s going to be frackin amazing!
Everyday I think to myself “maybe today I will make this big announcement saying what I am” I play it over and over in my head but then I really start thinking about it and get scared about what others will say. I’ve been thinking about it so much that last night all of my dreams consisted of me coming out to loved ones. In those dreams everyone accepted it and was fine with it, some even asked questions.
I really do want to just want to sent out a mass text or post something on facebook or calling my family to tell them. But I really am scared. The people who I have told have been fine with it so far. I want so much for my family to ask me because once I tell them I know I’ll feel better.
When my husband and I were getting ready to go to TAM i told my dad about it and said it was a big skeptics conference. He thought it would be fun to make jokes like “I’m skeptical it’ll even happen.” It kind of hurt when he said that even thoughI really hadn’t come to the realization that I was atheist just yet. My family at least thinks I’m agnostic because I told them I was a few years ago. they were fine with it.
For the past year I have been a member on a campground board for the church I’ve been a member of my whole life. a few weeks ago I gave my resignation because I can no longer be part of a board if I no longer believe what they do. I didn’t tell them the actual reason because I didn’t know how to tell them. I will be finishing out the year and I might tell them then. I will eventually give up my membership with the church, but because it has been such a big part of my life I’m scared to do it plus my family is part of this church.
I’ve been posting links to my blog when I post something new on the facebook group Reno Freethinkers and I guess every time I do it shows up on non members news feed. In a way I hope it’ll show up on my family members feed and they will look at this blog and then ask me what it’s about. But in a way I hope they don’t see it.
I am scared about coming out to them, but I keep thinking that there could be worse things i could tell them. I wouldn’t be bashing their beliefs, i’m just choosing to not believe them.
I went to the last Reno Freethinkers meeting and felt comfortable with the group because I’m not the only one going through this transition and I have people to support me and my husband in this.
Thank you all for reading and commenting on my blog it really does help me in my journey whether you’re atheist or believe in a higher being.